I wake up this morning, achy and tired as if I never slept a wink and my body is failing me. But the sun is out and breeze blowing- a nice, steady, cooling kind of breeze, the kind that could lure you into a nice Sunday snooze. No weed whacking today! Great! I hear the neighbour’s cock crowing up the road and the goats calling from the thick bush that is quickly turning into a jungle.
I psych myself up and start doing that tidying up I have been procrastinating about for weeks now. I put on some music on the telly – Stingray music on channel 501. So I cleaning, tidying and cant help doing that thing I so love..dancing. Man those tracks were playing just for me. Some oldies, Madonna, George Michael a bit of Rihanna, Megan Trainor’s Like I’m Gonna Lose You– featuring John Legend, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-MBfn8XjIU and a few new ones I am really liking – Sara Bareilles She used to be mine- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53GIADHxVzM, Anna Nalick’s Breathe – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdRHSuPxgXo, to One Direction’s Perfect – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ho32Oh6b4jc .
And I realize that lately I have been so caught up in dealing with the things life keeps throwing at me, and how I have been feeding a lot of other things, but neglecting to feed one real important part of me – my soul. Because ...
“Sometimes life just slips in through a back door
And carves out a person
And makes you believe it’s all true”
“She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie
She is gone but she used to be mine”
Excerpts from “She used to be mine” lyrics- http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/sarabareilles/sheusedtobemine.html
So this morning I mix up a recipe. A remedy. I let it be. Create my space. Add some music, the right mood, spirit. Pour in some singing, stir in a lot of dancing, dancing, dancing. And Yes, there’s lots of stuff to do- organizing, accounting, planning, promoting, planting etc. But they can wait. Mm, procrastinating again? Nah! Today I am cooking me up some soul food! I been doing that since I knew how…
The radio playing real low. A Jackson Five song come on. I wish I could put up the volume loud, because I real like them Jackson Five songs. I singing in the broomstick. Not so loud, because even though Claire gone to work, I don’t want Auntie Ethel to hear me. And I dancing round the room, while I dusting down: the chairs, the TV and then the black shiny record player, the tables and then the window ledges.
I real like to sing and dance. And now I hearing all these nice songs I never hear before. When I used to be with me father, I used to only hear reggae. And I like them reggae too. But these songs and them does make me forget. I does forget about school. I does forget about all them ugly names them children does call me. They does make the work easy and sometimes I does even forget Claire home, until I hear, “Turn off dat damn radio and do you work!”
And while I am dusting, I open the Simple Blogging manuscript. I started reading it a while ago, planning, hoping to implement some of the advice, and TIME MANAGEMENT , in big, black, bold letters just jump out and slap me right in me face! But I just shut it and replace it on the bottom shelf of my desk. And I carry on with me dancing, singing… breathing. Just being me and I am loving that I can do that, right now, right here, Just me. And I feeling blessed. Because this ting I am doing right here, right now, is feeding my soul. Perfect Time management if you ask me. Why be normal when you could be happy. It’s on my “To Read list”. Feeding the soul.