“Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.” John Lennon-
As Life happens and we try to deal with what it dishes out- whether served on porcelain China, enamel bowl or a bashie (calabash). We have to deal with what it throws, pelts or hurls at us, in whatever way. Facing many paths. And as Robert Frost said in his poem The Road Not Taken, “Two roads diverged …And sorry I could not travel both…and way leads on to way…” We have to make choices. And sometimes we just have to roll with choices made for us.
Recently, I found myself dealing with my share . And I found that I was not dealing with them right. I was letting things take over. And as my thoughts infected my moods, and my moods affected my being, I found that my actions reflected everything. Just as if Life empty out me free spirit, my spontaneity, my creativity and all me passion from me bashie and replace it with bitterness, vexness, sourness, fedup-ness, stupidness. All how I turn was bad vibes. So I lost my way, more than a little bit.
I kept making excuses for not doing. Procrastinating. And there was always a ready excuse. I kept trying to justify them. I convinced myself that it was ok not to do right now. It is ok not to be my true self right now, because this has happened, or that was happening. And every day it got easier to Not do. To Not be. Because I gave power to these negative forces. Power to hold me back. Hold me down. Shackle my feet.
Well ah taking back me damn power! We have a saying here that ‘give cyan take back’. But ah want back me damn ting! Ah want back me voice. Me spirit. Me movement. Me words. Meself. Gimme back me damn mojo. Because from now on, Not Creating Is Not An Option.
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